although the months coming have a gust of cold breeze under its wings, i’ve been having this warm gush of waves rolling to and from the toes of my feet.
it’s a few days away from the 9th month of the year. and it seems that my fortune has changed drastically from the beginning of this year. events lately have made me realize that what i’ve went through wasn’t for the sake of nothing. it was definitely for something. something grand, that i cannot yet completely comprehend. i’m not really dwelling on just one aspect. it has surged through everything, even through the cracks. believe me when i say i’ve been patched up during the earlier parts of this year. it’s just that now, i think i’ve been feeling the edges of my entirety to diminish, yet to unfurl further.
it’s funny though. amidst all of these good vibes, i’m still in a state of utter confusion. for what? everything as well. even the red marks say so. i just hope i wouldn’t fall into something i cannot get back up from. i can already see the edge, but i don’t know if i’m going there or i would be forced to be there. let me not go past the edge.